In case you didn't know...

There has been more (much more!) going on in our loves than Spring Break 2014, which was my last post.  For any of you who may not be my Facebook friend, here is what else has been going on:

Yep, I'm pregnant!  About 11 weeks 3 days, as of right now.  Jeremiah is going to be a big brother!  I still can't believe I am actually able to say that!

J is pretty excited about his upcoming role, and even has said that he would like a baby sister (!!!!).  Crazy.  He also seems to be pretty aware, more so than I figured a 4 year old would be, but then again, he's not your average 4 year old. :)

A conversation we had as I was putting him to bed over the weekend:
J: Mommy, is that baby still in your tummy?
Me:  Yep, it's still there.
J: Well, when is it going to come out?
Me: It is going to grow and grow and mommy's tummy is going to get bigger and bigger and then it will come out.
J:  How will it come out?
Me: (Silence)
Me: Um, well, you know how when we go downtown we drive by the hospital where we got you?  We will go to a hospital and get this baby, too. (How's that for random and totally avoiding the question?)
J: Well, do they cut off your stomach and then take the baby out?
Me: (Silence)
Me: Ummmmmm..... I guess we'll see. (?????  What the heck do you say to that?  And where did he get THAT idea from?!?!?!)

And another one from today:
J: Mommy, why are you not feeling good?
Me: Well, when mommy's have a baby in their tummy it can make them not feel good for awhile.
J:  Is it the one in there right now?
Me: Yeah.
J: Well, how did that baby climb inside your tummy?
Me: I don't know.
(I'm sure I should have had much better answers to these questions prepared, but I honestly didn't think we'd ever be in this situation!  So for now he gets a lot of pauses and vague answers....)

I am sure there will be many more questions in the coming months.  Let's just hope they happen on weekends when Daddy is home.

I have been feeling tired, sick, etc just like you would expect for the 1st trimester.  I'm not going to lie.  Being a single-mom during the week, being a full-time teacher, having the house ready for showings most evenings (which involves the normal tidying up plus chasing after the 4 year old and putting away anything he takes out... plus then having to be gone for a few hours in the evenings when all I want to do is lay on the couch....), PLUS being in the 1st trimester of pregnancy with nausea and exhaustion, etc.... it is HARD.  I thought it was hard before I was pregnant!  Whew!  Most nights after I get J ready for bed, I get things ready for the next day and then just head to bed myself!  I've also been late to school more often than I should, but it is just SO hard to get going at 5:30 am!  I do feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel, though, and I am hoping that the nausea/tiredness will stop soon after I hit the 2nd trimester in a few weeks.

Don't get me wrong, though.  I am NOT complaining about my pregnancy symptoms!  It sounded like it, but I wasn't. :)  And why not?  Because they help me to know that I AM pregnant and things are going the way they should.  I was honestly relieved when, at 6 weeks, I started having food aversions and nausea.  Because the last pregnancy I experienced ended in a miscarriage.  And my worst fear was that I would have to go through that again.  And I never had any "symptoms" at all with that one, so I was praying that this one would be different-- and it certainly has been, thankfully.

I feel like when I was pregnant with Jeremiah, I was naive.  Not that I didn't KNOW that miscarriage was possible, I mean, everyone knows it's possible.  And not even just possible, but very common!  I did know that, and I guess I was a little nervous during that 1st trimester, but I didn't really think it was going to happen to me, and it didn't.  Then with the 2nd pregnancy, I also did know about the possibility of miscarriage, but again, "didn't really think that would happen to me."  And then it did.  And I knew that if God ever blessed us with another pregnancy, I would be so scared that 1st trimester.  Because I would be terrified it would happen again!  And I was.  It was so scary!  I am thankful for a Dr's office that allowed me to come in for several bloodtests and ultrasounds before my first real OB appt, so I could have peace of mind.  That's hard when all you have are your own thoughts/worries and Google.  I wish Google had never been invented!

Anyway, all of this to say, we are absolutely thrilled to be expecting another baby.  We were not sure it would ever happen again, but also believe wholeheartedly in God's plan and his perfect timing.  We also know that this isn't a given and we are not out of the woods yet.  But again, we trust in God and his plan.

I have to say how absolutely AMAZING it is to see the development of a baby.  I had an ultrasound at 5 weeks-ish and there was really nothing visible there that looked or even remotely resembled a baby (but I still had peace of mind because everything looked as it should at that gestation!).  Then at 7 weeks there was a visible heartbeat (AMAZING!).  Then at 8.5 weeks, there was a little tiny big-headed bean.  And then WOW,  at almost 11 weeks to see teeny tiny arms flailing around and watching the baby turn and twist?!?!?!? (And also to have the ultrasound tech guess at the gender... "and she's usually right").  I don't even have words to describe how awesome!  God is good!